How is it almost over?

Setting up my schedule for this upcoming week I can not believe that summer is over. That my little journey is over that I am almost 30. I know everyone says that with kids the years fly by but holy shit, its like warp speedand all you've been doing is wiping noises and asses the whole time.




 By the way this post is picture heavy with some pictures from our Lewisburg trip.
*Jude looking daper in his tux onesie
*The Dueling Fiddlers (they are amazing  check them out http://www.youtube.com   /watch?v=V9faviAyE6U )
 *Ravi and Adrian at the Doc family night (way past Adrians bedtime)
* In front of a giant clam at the Greenbriar casino
*Squeezing my best friends bubbies in her wedding dress
*Strolling in Lewisburg WV

This last week has tested my commitment to staying healthy and fit by our road trip to my husbands med school reunion. The trip was centered around a ton of food and alcohol as well as shopping but I never feel guilty shopping in excess, even though that would probably be a healthy diet as well. Downtown Lewisburg, WV has the best boutique shopping ever, yes, I said West Virginia.  It was odd because when we leave on trips I always think about what I'm going to eat and when and plan out the itinerary based on food. This was something I did not realize I did  and did with so much vigor. I love it, I love eating at new places and getting apps, salads, soups, entrees, desserts and specialty drinks. I love the experience of a new menu and talking about the food as if it were a child. "Your so amazing, yes you are, yes you are." I think about food a lot, I mean a lot. I don't know why I obsess over it the way I do but I realize know it has a power that I am strong enough to over come and that feels really good. Normally if I restrict myself all I can think is about what I am restricting. I have taken satisfaction in the control over my body instead of the lack of and finding pride and satisfaction in the way I can change my body due to my strong will and strength. Its a high and a good high unlike a cheese fry high which is short lived followed by slight nausea.

Yesterday I went with my best friend to try on wedding dresses and we had a great time and I felt okay trying on dresses and was happy to squeeze into an 8. I may not be able to sit down, will have to double Spanx but its doable. I want to look great at her wedding next to that hot bitch.


I have just a couple weeks left before I turn thirty and I feel I am on the right track to make a change that I really want. I want to celebrate and have a great time. I even bought a ridiculously expensive dress to rock out in.

This weekend I am headed to Chicago with just the hubby and we are meeting up with a fabulous group of friends. This group has been a rock for me during pregnancy and all that follows. I am looking forward to the fabulous restaurants we are planning to attend as well as the excessive drinking I am guiltily going to participate in. I hope I can do it with moderation and control but find of balance of enjoyment as well.



This week I am weighing in at 155.9
This is huge for me as its a vanity number for me. I can't wait to do my measurements and bikini pic in a couple weeks to show off the hard work, that is if Chicago doesn't blow it for me.